Getting Back on Track

Ok, well it’s been too long again. I’ve been suffering from the “I don’t wanna’s”. I don’t want to diet, I don’t want to be fat, I don’t want to exercise… you get the idea. Not a great place to be nor very productive. So I’ve used up all the excuses, I’ve got a job again and established a reliable routine, went through the 15 birthdays we have had from April through June 5th, 5 of which were in celebrated in my home complete with cake and ice cream. And now I’m faced with a trip coming up in 2 months, one that I really don’t want to be 217lbs or more.
My DH has been staying strong he has been slowly moving down and is holding at about a 95lb loss! I’m so proud of him. He has been strong through my weakness and he has been encouraging to me through these dark few months.
But I’m ready again. I started back on track June 2nd, my birthday. We celebrated it on Sunday and Monday I started back on low carb. I was at 217lb and saw some weight gain from my weekend transgressions on Tuesday and Wednesday, this morning I woke up and was back to 217. I’ve been pretty good with the exception of some carb smart ice cream at night. I know I will have to wean myself off that to be successful, but for now I’m using it as a focal point, I hope by the end of next week I’ll be able to back away from it.

I’ve not be participating in many of the Low Carb forums that exists. I belong to lowcarbfriends, livin la Vida Locarb, and Camp Carbaway. The one I have liked best so far has been Camp Carbaway, to my shock, but I think it was really created to get away from some of the LowCarb negativity that has surrounded some of the other forums and the anger surrounding the Kimkins Crap. Believe it or not, Camp Carbaway was started by one of the former Kimkins supporters who has had an incredible amount of hate directed toward her. I joined knowing that but I wanted to see for myself and I have encountered a really really great bunch of people, completely supportive and it really doesn’t seem that there is any finger pointing or blame shame game going on, which I have seen in the other forums.

Anyway, my time has been getting sucked up by the new schedules. Sometimes I feel like I don’t get a chance to think until 8pm at night. I up at 5:30 and boom boom boom, get kids up, dressed and out the door to school then to work, off work at 4:30, home with kids by 5:15 eat, bath visit for like 30 minutes then my son goes to bed at 7pm and my daughter follows at 8pm….whew. So I’ve been working at getting a lot of the food I need ready to go so it’s just a matter of grab and go. We cook up a bunch of chicken breast on the grill on the weekend. I throw them in the freeze, one to a sandwich bag so I can just grab one at a time. My favorite has been a chicken breast cut in half long ways, with some laughing cow cheese sliced thin and put in the middle and some cheddar cheese sprinkled on top. Maybe a dab of ranch, Yum, like 3-4 carbs depending on how much ranch.

Happy 2008

Sorry, I've not posted in so long, like over a month! I was just so very very busy over the holidays. We had a great Holiday! The best ever for me! I had off from work the Thursday before Christmas until the 31st and I TOTALLY enjoyed it. I tried to be good but definitely relaxed my diet, decided that I would get back at it again after the 1st. I was pretty proud of my 50lbs since July. I figured I might gain back 10...and was trying to be OK with that. So as of January 2nd I was only up 5 lbs... not bad...I was please so I got back to it...and failed, and failed and failed. I ended up restarting about 3 times unsuccessfully. It was really hard to get back on track after so much cheating, and I guess not gaining a really big number wasn't enough to scare me back on track...so after my new size 16 jeans got tight at 208.8lbs, I got scared and got back on Track. That was only last Saturday the 19th! I planned a fast for that day. I originally was just going to do meat only all day, but I didn't trust myself. So I reverted to a liquid fast, water, and an Atkins shake if it got too bad. I made it until 5pm with just water and one shake, when DH and I talked about what was going on with me, because of course I didn't keep him in the loop of my shameful spiral. He asked why I was doing the fast, thought it seemed more like I was punishing myself and I agreed. I felt like I was punishing myself for not being able to control myself. I decided to break the fast and have dinner. I had a chicken breast and some cheese.

I've been cheat free since Saturday and got down to 205 even again, now onwards. I've joined a challenge at my support forum to loose 10 lbs by Valentines day, well I join that like 2 weeks ago so I don't know if I will make it.
I told DH I need to get away from some of these Low carb products like Carbquik and s/f candy. I think they are triggering me to cheat, or binge.

DH is doing great, he has decided to try to get to 220 by July and he is at 245, I'm sure he will make it. I would like to get to 150 by July, and I'm at 205...will be hard but if I can stay on track I think it is possible. I secretly kind of hope that such a prolong cheat will help my metabolism kick back in to gear...and I will see a little bit more rapid weight loss.

On a happy note, I've noticed my hair is finally feeling thick again. I do not think I'm loosing nearly what I was. The biotin seems to be helping. :D

Getting excited for Christmas!

Christmas is going to be so great this year! I can't wait! *giggle*

I'm doing pretty good this week, 2 sessions of aerobics and 4 nights of walking/running so far... I'm managed to get back down to 199. Hopefully tomorrow (weight in day) I'll be maybe 198?

DH made it to 250 this week. He so rocks! He has lost 78lbs in 6 months!

Back and Forth

I just can seem to stay on track. I don't know where I lost it but somewhere I did and I went off plan for the last 3 days. I had a piece of Carrot Cake on Tuesday and a brownie on Wednesday, Yesterday I had a Carmel apple empanada...and today I'm up to 201. UGH! I suck.... I'm trying to get back on track today. It is so hard to have lost that 40 lbs so quickly (in 2 months) and then be struggling so hard for 1 pound a week...and not even be successful on that. My day to day diet consists of 2 eggs for breakfast, chicken or a hamburger for lunch, and chicken or some other meat for dinner, green beans or spinach. Maybe a scoop of carb smart at bed time and with that diet...I do not loose...I'm stalled.... so I get frustrated and cheat...and I gain 3 pounds in 3 days.... it doesn't quiet seem fair.

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Made it through the Holiday Weekend!

Happy Monday! DH and I made it through Thanksgiving successfully! We had Thanksgiving at our home this year, first year ever! We had 18 for Dinner. It was Awesome. I had basically four groups of people coming and I broke out the meal so everyone brought something. We made a smoked Turkey and Sweet Potato casserole, Carrots and Green beans, Deviled Eggs and Rolls. My mom came and brought Mashed potatoes, Rainbow Jello, Corn Casserole, Zucchini, and crab tarts. My BF Donna brought a roasted Turkey, stuffing and gravy, and my Cousin K brought 3 totally awesome pies. I also made a butterscotch pumpkin cake and the best ever low carb pumpkin bake. We had tons of food and NO STRESS! It was great, everyone came and brought a piece, we set it all out, grabbed paper plates and silver ware and dug in. The food all tasted great and the company was out of this world. I loved it! DH and I both did really good, we just stuck with the Turkey ,green beans, deviled eggs and I had a touch of gravy. The pumpkin bake was very satisfying. I thought I would be able to just skip dessert, but it was so much better to have this, and it was so yummy!
I actually lost weight! Saturday I had gotten down to 196, but today I'm back up to 199 which I believe is a result of a very salty roast we had for dinner yesterday. Not stressing, I know what to do.
I joined the newest challenge at the LLVLC website and I was down a pound on Friday for the weigh in, and I'm sure that I will be down at least another pound this Friday.

Hope Everyone had a great Thanksgiving!

ONDERLAND

FINALLY! It has been a long hard struggle but I finally arrived at onederland today. I woke up and weighed 199.4! WOOT!