Back on track

I did pretty good getting back on track last week. I lost and gained and lost...lol highest I was last week was 206 and this morning I am at 202 so Yeah Me! I've not gotten motivated enough to start using fitday again but I aspire to.

Hubby is just so far ahead of me, he is at a 268, a 60 pound lost. I'm so proud of him. His goal was 50 before Christmas and he is totally making it, he had to change that to his current goal of 250 by Christmas which I'm sure he will make.

I'm still working on my 50 by christmas goal, I'm sitting at 45 lbs so I'm sure I will make it.

Our menus tend to be repetitive so I don't really post them. But if you are interested we do a lot of Eggs and Chicken (my boss swears I'm growing feathers). I bring 2 eggs and have mayo at work so I do a 2 egg salad every morning. I usually bring left overs from dinner the night before for lunch then we usually do some kind of chicken for dinner. We have a nice steak and green chilies every Thursday and DH has wings on Saturday and I have Alice Spring Chicken that I make at home on Saturday.

Did I tell you we added weight training to our exercise? 3 times a week I lift weights. I'm up to 15 lbs on my biceps and 12.5 on the butterflies and 25 on the chest pulls. I hope it will help with the really bad bye bye arms I have! LOL


On a personal note...I got blinds! Yeah. We created an addition on our home last summer and I never completely decided how I was going to decorate the new room. (I'm a terrible decorator) It is our eatting area, yes, with a family of eight we needed to make an addition to have enough room for everyone to sit and eat together. We painted the room a really nice blue with a lighter blue on the ceiling. My DH and BIL made us a huge table and made bench seating on one side with storage. We have enough room for 10 to sit at the table comfortable. I dreamt of making it tropical themed room. I love the blue and I bought a red curtain for the sliding glass door, but that is as far as I got. I wanted to do do accents with hybiscuts and had a wild idea about painted bamboo shades! LOL anyway we have decided now to have Thanksgiving at our home and I decided, that after a year and countless birthday parties, it was time to finish this room. So I started with just some basic blinds (took down the temporary paper ones). On to stage two, some other window dressings and possibly some wall decorations. Hmmmmmmm.... taking suggestions!

Recovery

I don’t know what happened but the Kimkins controversy really has come to a head with the news stories and law suit being filed. Suddenly all the message boards are quieter and the exposed and truth blogs are quiet. I think maybe everyone is going through a little depression after the climax kind of thing?
For me it has been an unhappy last two weeks. I'm back up about 5 pounds and fighting back again. I just kind of had a melt down last week and decided I was tired of being good, tired of dieting, tired of it all. I am back today because I definitely don't want to stay in that place. It's not a nice feeling. Hubby intervined with...what are you doing?! "I need you to be on board with me, I want us to be doing the same thing" is what he said to me... I told you he was special and awesome ;D
So I'm back on board today for real, had my egg salad for breakfast and Alice Spring Chicken for lunch. Tonight is L/C enchiladas. No Cheats and I'm good to go home and exercise....the recovery is beginning.

Liar Liar Pants on Fire! Watch out Kimmer...they are on to you!

Kimkin Exposed! Check it out!!! The News has picked up the story!

Part 2 of Kimkins Exposed!

Part 3 of Kimkins Exposed!

Still Struggling

Happy Monday everyone! October 1st already! WOW! It's truly amazing how quickly the month of September has flown by.
I guess I should start by saying this last week has truly been a struggle, emotionally and dieting too. I wonder how many of you that read my blog are overweight and struggling with the emotions around being overweight.
I feel like everything in my life is perfect except my physical self. I have a great job, a loving husband, 2 wonderful biological kids, and the sheer pleasure of having my AWESOME nieces living with me (triplets) who are almost always the biggest helpers and cheer leading team one could ask for. So because that is all good, my burden is my physical self. I'm fat, and although I've lost 45 lbs since July, I'm still fat and still trying to lose weight. It's a slow process, which I've had wonderful success at early on, but the last two weeks have stalled. And the stalls are demotivating. I try to tell myself not to let the stalls get me off track and the quicker I get back on track the faster I'll break these stalls, but opportunity for temptations raises often in my house and this week has been another week of failing to resist those temptations.
I did pretty good all week, remember I had gained back 3 pounds putting me back at 204. Last week I tried staying strict, wanting to get back into ketosis so I could get back to loosing. I did have some weight loss here then a little gain there, never much in either direction. (I have been indulging in the carbsmart ice cream with some s/f chocolate sauce on it (about 5 net carbs in total). I've wondered if I needed to cut that to get the serious weight loss back.)
I started weight training on Friday so I am expecting a little stall/gain in the hopes that I'm building muscle.
This is the CRAZY birthday week in my house, mind you DD birthday was on 9/18, the start of this stall because I had cake and ice cream. Now I have my B-i-L birthday, (the triplets dad who also lives with us) today, my DH birthday on Friday and my DS birthday next Monday.
Also with the weather turning nicer here and the start of the fall season the girls and I made pumpkin chocolate chip cookies yesterday, which I did end up eating 2 or 3! I totally felt that crazy carb rush like I could sit down and eat the WHOLE batch. I made myself take the kids outside to play and planted my fall flowers, which did help some. But I'm feeling bad and guilty still, struggling with the F-it attitude that says screw it for the week, I'll just start again next Tuesday. Do you know what I mean....then I have this counter fear that if I do that, I'll never start again.
Previously DH and I talked about birthdays and agreed we'd celebrate birthdays by participating and having a small piece of cake and some ice cream. But stalling after DD's birthday makes me not want to do it which in turn made DH feel bad because he was looking forward to cake and ice cream many times this week and not having it be "CHEATING"
OH I don't know, is this too much rambling? Sorry...I'm just venting trying to get over this. WHY can't I just be normal??! Birthday comes along, have cake. Back to dieting. I guess I really am obsessed with loosing weight. I feel as if I have laid so much of my happiness on loosing this weight that any set backs just wreck me and I find it so hard to get back to a good place. If I don't have those results immediately then it's not working or something is wrong. I am back down to 202 today, and that is not good enough for me. I wanted to get back to the 201 I was at on the 18th. And now I'm going to be going back up again because of birthday cakes. I guess I feel maybe a little out of control, because if I decide not to have cake the DH is not going to have any and I don't think that is fair. It makes him upset to not have the cake because he was looking forward to it. But he is doing really great right now, he is down 52 lbs! I WANT to have cake, heck who wouldn't!!, but I don't think I need to have cake for his brothers birthday. I'd rather save my cheat for HIS birthday on Friday, or my DS birthday on Monday, but in the meantime I cheated with cookies...it all makes no sense!

I think I need a time out! LOL

DH just called, he has lost 53lbs as of this morning....YEAH!! I think I'm just going to force feed him my cake tonight! LOL! Just Kidding! Have a great Monday!


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UPDATED 12:55pm 10/01/2007
I have just been banned from the Kimkins website. Not for anything that I said there, or did there. I've never said or did anything negative on the site, but because they tracked my ip address somewhere else and decided they did not like the places I had been. Shame on them for invading my privacy. It actually makes me want to throw up to think that I've been violated like that.... ew..*gag*

MAN OH MAN!

OOO I'm so angry this week! I gained 3 lbs! It all started on the 18th when I had a piece of cake for my DD's birthday. DH and I had planned on it for a week. We did our carb blockers and I had a small piece, TINY maybe 1" x 2" and about 2 tablespoons of ice cream. I didn't even finish it. I ate maybe 3/4ths of it. OK, so no big deal I expected to stay still in my weight or maybe even gain a few ounces. So what happen? GRRRR!
The next day at work my boss brought in pistachios...I LOVE pistachios and know that 39 kernels is one serving and it is about 5carbs. The problem is the salt makes me stall... anyway, I ate some of her pistachios, and that along with the night before cheat sent me over the edge! I ate a bunch of pistachios, I stopped counting, just ate them. I gained a pound that day.
The next day I felt guilt that I ate so many of her pistachios and went out and bought her somemore to replace them, and I bought myself some also. Gained another pound that day.
It is like a frieght train and I couldn't stop it. I tried to recover this weekend and did pretty good, but still gained another pound for a total of 3 pounds (Assuming the left over weight gain from the nuts and cake).
My frustration is this: I didn't cheat that bad! I only had a some nuts and a tiny piece of cake. Is my metabolism that bad off?
I tested last night and I was no longer in Ketosis so I had another piece of cake (yes I still took the carb blockers). I figure I have to start over Monday anyway and I have been resisting THESE cakes anyway (DD bday cake and a "Bonus" Cake from a KFC meal on Saturday) They tasted horrible by the way, I didn't finish them.
SO today I am back on Induction, that is lean proteins, very few veggies and fiber, staying under 20 carbs. It should take 3 to 5 days to get back to ketosis. I'm back at 204.5.
The good news is that I can still see the whole picture. I started this 11 weeks ago at 247 lbs. I've made some big changes to my WOE and my lifestyle. I'll make it to 140 BEFORE July 2008!
I went shopping this weekend to cheer myself up, got a pair of black jeans, size 18 and they are a little big :D I also bought an outfit in a size 16! YEAH! it's a little snug but not terrible, I was excited.

46 pounds gone!

Yes, I had a big jump this week. Was it because I switched up to an Atkins diet from doing the too low calories/fat Kimkins diet? Could be.
DH has been a little frustrated because he has been bouncing down then up so he is down 2 lbs then up a pound, then down 3 and up 2, then down one and up 2, see, crazy like. I told him it might be because he was really low on calories and he is a bigger guy than me, he needs to eat a little more than me, He was down below 800 calories a day. So he is doing Atkins with me now too. I think that he is happier, he really likes the waffles and I got my order in finally (took 2 weeks from netrition.com) and made the low carb rolls (2 net carbs). I made a batch last night because we made hamburgers last night (regular ones not the dove ones lol!). I thought I could use the roll as a hamburger bun, well, the roll was much smaller then the hamburger so I ended up cutting the hamburger in half. In the end, I couldn't taste a thing. I caught this nasty cold over the weekend and I lost my voice and apparently my sense of smell and taste. It was almost a waste of carbs to not be able to taste the roll. I added garlic powder and cheese to the mix to taste kinds like those rolls you get from red lobster. Anyway hubby said they smelled good. He is saving his roll for today I think cause he didn't try it last night.

Well the kimkins controversy is raging on. So many people have been banned from or left the kimkins website. Most of the admin crew has been banned two fold since I've been there, meaning we are on our third set of admins since 08/13/2007. One lady is setting up a class action lawsuit against the site for people that have been banned to get their money back.
There is all kinds of crazy rumors that kimkins is attaching some kinds of tracker to your ip address that is tracking you going to other websites and banning you if you participate on Lowcarbfriends forum or Jimmy Moore's living la vida lowcarb forum. Is that even possible? I mean the technology? Wouldn't that violate someones rights? Kind of like wire tapping no? I find that I am fascinated by the whole thing though. It's like a soap, I don't want to watch, but I can't help but watch.

I'm spending most of my time on Jimmy's Forum. It is much more laid back and I'm not worried about posting comments that could get me banned so Thank You Jimmy for setting up a place that is safe for us to have an open discussion about low carb diets, ANY ONE of them!
I tried the Low Carb Friends forum for a little while but they are heavily into scrubbing or deleting comments, so just be aware of that there. (They deleted my comment that said "If we could invent low carb popcorn, we'd be millionaires" in a reference to the drama going on with the kimkins site...I guess they felt it was offensive) I'm not into being censored, so I think that was the last posting I made, or rather tried to make there.

If you were a fan of Becky(aka Lilbit), Christin (WW cover girl) or Deni please visit their blogs OR come visit them on Jimmy's Forum.

Finally count: DH is down 47lbs and I'm down 46lbs in 10 weeks :D Will post our measurments soon... tomorrow is measuring day.

The Dove Meat

Well, we did it. We ground up the Dove meat and mixed it with sausage formed patties and grilled them on Sunday night for dinner. My official opinion was that it was good. I think mixing it with the ground sausage was good. There was no overwhelming gaming taste that I expected. We grilled them up with Cheese on top and ate it like a hamburger EXCEPT, no bun, cause I'm still doing low carb.

Speaking of Low Carb, some of you might notice that I removed the reference to Kimkins in my header. I've just been GLUED to the lowcarbfriends and kimkins forum over the last week with the current controversies. AMAZING, it's like a soap, what's going to happen next. Is Heidi Diaz Kimmer or not?! I have been reading the blogs of the admins (linked at the side of my blog) that have been banned with open eyes and mind. Lilbit's blog particularly is very eye opening and believable. I guess that is the key, when you are open and just lay it all out, it is believable. When you hide behind pseudo names, withhold information, and refuse to acknowledge the controversy and respond to your paying members concerns by banning them, it tends allow more doubt to creep into peoples perspective of you.
ANYWAY I have been doing the Kimkins diet, and participating in the forums, however there are several aspects of the Atkins diet that I miss. Namely the ability to subtract the sugar alcohols and the fiber from the carbs, i.e. counting net carbs. I think Atkins helped me to be successful before because I could have those little cheats legally and not gain weight.
This weekend I made low carb waffles and had it with BUTTER and Sugar free syrup. It was most yummy!! Hubby was thrilled to have something other then scrambled eggs. (he had me make him batter and leave it home for him to make waffles for today!). So according to the kimkins diet that was completely illegal, that would have been 12 carbs just for the syrup. BUT using net carbs to count it would have only been 2.5 carbs per waffle, and believe you and me, one was plenty! I was stuffed full afterward! Hubby and I need to discuss it, but I think I might be leaning to going back to more of an Atkins diet. Besides, I am not sure how I feel associating myself with someone who can't be honest with themselves, let alone others. In the mean time I'll be watching the drama with interest. *Wish they made low carb popcorn!*


Here is the Waffle Recipe from the Low Carb Friends website:
4 Large Eggs = 2 carbs
1/4 C. water = 0 carbs
2 Scoops Designer Whey Vanilla Protien Powder (this is approximately 23 cup) which = ~2 carbs
1/2 tsp. baking powder = 0.6 carbs
1/4 tsp. salt = 0 carbs
2 tsp. canola oil = 0 carbs
2 tsp. vanilla = 0 carbs

How To Prepare: Mix liquid ingredients in one bowl. Mix dry ingredients in seperate bowl. ( I don't use the full 14 cup of water, I just add enough to the entire mix to keep it moist, it makes thicker batter and better consistancy for waffles ) Mix all ingredients until blended well. For fun variety, one can also substitute different extracts for different flavors. Also, add chopped nuts, but remember to add the carbs. I grease my hot BELGIAN waffle iron with butter, it adds flavor to die for. If you serve this with SF syrup mixed with melted butter, it is unbelievable. If you serve this with eggs and bacon, 1/2 of a belgian waffle will suffice! Therefore you've endulged on waffles for less than 2 carbs!